Cure Kevin

Kev and I took another trip to the ER this past Tuesday evening. Kev’s pain had increased and had shortness of breath. The pain moved to his chest area and it felt the same as when he had the blood clot.We arrived about midnight. As he was getting his tests one ER staff member said “You look familiar” I said we should look familiar because you have helped us the past three ER visits since January. They ruled out anything with the heart,the blood clot was resolved and watched Kev for 24 hours. They sent us home on Thursday morning with no answers on why he still has the pain. I am sure we will find out Monday when we see our oncologist.

We were finished in the ER about 4:30 am and Kev was transported to a hospital room for observation. The routine is the covering doctor or resident meets with us and asks the regular questions.  Can you tell me what your original diagnosis is? Answer: Pancreatic Cancer. Do you smoke? answer: No, Do you drink?  answer: No, Do you have a family history of Pancreatic Cancer? answer: No.
The doctor who asked these same questions to us was sincere and compassionate in his statement after he heard our answers he said, ” I am so sorry God did this to you.” He said this to each one of us and took our hand in both his hands. He really felt bad for us. I wished I had said something after he made that comment because the doctor was sincere, but I wanted to point out that I don’t agree. It was 4:30 in the morning and I was numb and unable to organize my thoughts.

I really don’t feel that God did this to us. Through all of this I have not been angry nor blaming God for what we are going through. God is loving and merciful. Our world was created for us to use for different purposes in our life, so we can live in beauty and have the bounties of the earth to sustain us. I know God knew what we were about to experience and put together the people and support systems around us to help make us get through our journey.

For me the statement should be, “I am so sorry for what man has done to you.” Because people and companies have not been good stewards of our earth and have polluted the sky, water, and land or made products that are harmful.  Man did not think of the consequences of decisions that were made that would effect mankind.

Or the doctor could have said, “I am sorry for being born in a family with the genetic disposition for pancreatic cancer” We don’t think this statement is true for us, but there are other families who have to deal with it.

So, I feel bad I could not have a heart to heart discussion about his statement because I think he would have a wider understanding of Kev and I and the new life we live.

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